animosity
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- an·i·mos·i·ty
: ill will or resentment tending toward active hostility : an antagonistic attitude
So here I go again. BLOGGING. As always. My means of releasing all my inhibitions and turning those into calm, subtle thoughts. Currently, I am feeling a pang of animosity with someone. Not a specific someone (may or maybe not, IDK). These past few days have been nothing but blessings, blessings, blessings. I am blessed with new people, new environment, new perspectives. As I turned 18, I saw how the maturation of my journey has been. It's been a long journey, I must say. Alongside with the sudden nostalgia were glimpse of people, I HAD. Yes, I ONCE HAD in my life. Some left and never came back. And I guess, for a few, I felt that there's this certain animosity holding me back. Sorry to be rude or whatever but there's no way I'm stopping myself from what I feel. Unless of course I'm hurting someone already. I just can't help but feel it. For the NTH TIME, I'm sorry.
This made me look back -- AGAIN. Of the people who stood by me through my pettiest and weirdest drama queen moments. I kinda had a change of heart, I am talking about the people who ARE HERE. STILL HERE. Here it goes:
P.S: These are not arranged in any way whatsoever.
◘ Sir Noel - even though we did not start smoothly, this man never failed to touch my existence. I repeat, we DON'T JIVE before. We're such two different people that we hardly see each other becoming a part of each other's lives. He had his principles, I had my own His was going the opposite direction as mine. Funny but true. I believed in things he never thought of believing in. Sa mga pagkakataon na kailangan mo ng kausap, andyan lang siya. He would just listen. Kahit na minsan hindi siya sang-ayon sa mga pinaniniwalaan mo. Pero kapag siya ang nanindigan sa prinsipyo niya, oh trust me. He'd stand by it. I was given the chance to be in his class. Sabi ko nga, I thought twas hell. HAHA. Hindi kasi ako lumaki sa ganon eh. Yung pagdating sa room, mag-aaral. Hindi lalabas ng classroom. Eh magbababa lang ako ng gamit ko, lalarga na ko. Haha! :)) That's how I was. Then he started injecting his principles. His class, his rules. More of, PROTOCOL, SOP. Sheesh. Whatever. That was when I understood how it went. I started seeing things on a lighter note. the optimism, will, motivation, determination. Sumagad masyado kaya bigla kaming nag-tie ni Valedictorian. No, I don't mean to brag. Don't worry, once lang nangyari yun. Haha. And to tell you, that was when I felt na HINDI PORKET NASA PINAKATAAS KA NA, MASAYA KA NA. As a kid, I always felt second best. From Charles to Virgil to Tim to Vincent. Goodness. Yung isa, masipag ( eh hindi naman ako ganon.) at yung isa, (inborn. Nagtataka din ako bakit napunta ng MTS yun. :DD ) So there. Na-realize ko na USELESS lang din lahat ng yun. Tiyaka ko lang naitindihan talaga yung sinasabi na: PLEASE GOD NOT MEN.
◘ Sem and Vincent - Hindi ko talagang magawang paghiwalayin ang dalawang `to. Kami yata ang trio in crime. And I mean, CRIME. :)))))))) Kami yung magkakaramay sa frustrations ng bawat isa. Lahat ng pang-aalipusta, pag-iimbot, natanggap ko na sa kanila. Haha. People try to break this certain BOND we have. Just a little trivia, kami-kami, together with Tim comprise the Top Four of the batch. Iikot lang samin madalas yun. Actually, sa'ming tatlo. Si Tim, hands down na talaga kami. So yun nga. Hobby ng tao na pagsabugin kami. Ewan ko ba. As if we'd die if we don't get the spot. Our friendship is more than those recognitions and tarpaulines. Immeasurable na yung moments ko that could testify how strong the friendship is. We saw each other during the toughest and bestest times of our lives. Kami-kami yung magkakalaban but never did it become an issue of who deserves it more than anyone else. We're achievers in our own fields. We back each other up. We're each other's strength. And that's what matters most.
◘ SO-CALLEDS - Hahaha. Kasama na sina Sem at Vince dito. Pero the whole SO-CALLEDS, these people define friendship. Sounds familiar? Check my photos. =) Yung samahan kasi, iba lang talaga. Lahat ng kalokohan, kaekekan namin, nakita na. Kami-kami yung nagpupuyat para sa Oregon Oxford Debate. Argumentative Paper. Research. School Paper Articles. Student Council Activities. Quiz Bees. Of course we argue. We always do. We even find ways. HAHAHAHA. To challenge our brain cells is something we enjoy doing. We stimulate topics inorder to arrive at juicy discussions. Now that is something worthwhile.
◘ Ate Judy - For almost 7 years,I've been with her. No, she's not my biological Ate. She's my former English teacher who happened to be a keeper. Hindi kami madalas magkatext, magkita, magchat o magusap. Believe it or not, there was this time that we did not have any form of communication for a year! Then when we regained contact, as if nothing happened. That's how my friendship with her goes. We never assumed nor expected from each other. It's more of GIVEN already.
◘ Gerd and AJ - these two are basically inseparable. Oh sure I love them both. Kaya nga lang, things will never be the same between me and them . I kinda understand that already. All my fault anyways. One thing I'm thankful is that, hindi man nila napaparamdam how much they care, I know they still do. And that for me is enough.
◘ Jojo - Awww. This girl is like the bestest friend ever. She's not exactly my best friend but this has always been throug my ups and downs. Kahit na hindi kami nagkikita talaga, kapag nagkita kami, super updated naman kami sa isa't isa. I don't think twice of telling her what happened while she was not around and vice versa. She has these pair of ears ready to listen every time my mouth speaks nonstop. =))))
I'm trying to recall people. Forgive me for the sudden mem gap. Haha. I'll pause here for a while. Toodles! ;)
